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[10 May 2007|09:11pm] |
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so,i'm writing on here again because like i said,no one reads this.
i've determined that i think i just may love someone,or something like love.
it's so ridiculous.
i don't know why,i mean,i do know why i feel that way,i just don't know why he doesn't.
hahah.
ugh.
xoxo
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| everything changes. |
[01 Mar 2007|09:59am] |
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Dear Livejournal,
Last time we spoke I was pretty much stupidly in love with,well,you know who.
Well,now,I'm dating his bestfriend,for a month and a week now.
It's going well,I think,but that's just what I think,who knows,haa.
I'm kind of bored,I'm in keyboarding and Livejournal is about all I can go to so I thought I would rant and complain and all that good stuff.
I love this class,I'm just...so good at it,haha.
It's my favorite.
Okay,I SHOULD only have to make up Science 10 to go into 11th grade,but who knows with this school.
In other news,I'm reading a book called The Tenth Circle and it is amazing,to say the least.
It's kind of based on Dante's Inferno,which is also wonderful.
It talks about anything and everything,like from the layers of hell to rape to Alaska and eskimos.
It's just...my kind of book.
I highly recommend it.
While researching Dante,I discovered a site where you can take a virtual tour of Hell,according to how Dante seen it.
It's neat-o.
So,now,we're listening to the radio and it's Cupid's Chokehold,if I hear this song one more time,I'm either going to strangle myself or Gym Class Heroes,holy cow.
I may be going to Charleston in a few days to see Brandy,I really hope so.
I want to go,but for some reason,I have severe attachment issues when it comes to my mom,and I just hate leaving,haha.
I don't understand myself sometimes,golly.
I wonder if mom will read this,if she does then uh, HI MOM.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Oh wow,some gangster music just came on,and I don't know it,rats.
I'm supposed to know EVERY song that comes on.
Gosh.
I'm slackin',I need to be up on the "in" music,ha.
Tomorrow is Friday and I'm excited.
Daniel is coming home,that weiner.
I want to do something but Brandi has practice EVERYDAY,so there goes my weekend,haha.
I need more friends,well,friends I can tolerate for more than five minutes that is.
This is the longest entry I've ever posted,how groovy.
Oh well,let's end it on this thought,I miss life.
The end.
Comments would be nice,you jerks,I added you for a REASON.
Get to it.
SHKRRMR OUT.
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| hi lj,let's be friends again. |
[08 Jan 2007|11:55pm] |
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so,i've had quite a day.
i stayed up all night,but that's nothing new,so this morning i just layed around with mom and eventually fell asleep.
i didn't wake up until five something,which i only woke up then because matt and charles were watching beavis and butthead and laughing so loud that the neighbors were probably cursing them to no end.
anyways,i got up,talked to matt and charles for a minute,got a drink,eventually got online.
that was when my day got good and bad all at once :).
the person i like told me he liked me too,ha,but we can't like each other,because,he has a girlfriend for one,oh,and he's going to be a father anyday now,ha,kind of puts a damper on that.
so,we both know that we shouldn't like each other,but,by the looks of it we both have horrible attachment issues so whatever.
i'm writing this shit on lj because i know nobody will read it,ha,wooo.
okay,i'm done.
xxxooxoxoxoxox,or something cool.
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| Dont Shut Me Out |
[04 Aug 2006|04:39am] |
I've pondered and pondered and cried and then pondered some more.
Why is the world oh so shallow?
Why dont people see that in a few years all the looks will fade,
the fashions will come and go but,
real,true beauty will always remain,and it will one day shine through the superficial
outside.
Maybe I think to much about things,but when theres nothing else to do,
my mind tends to wonder.
I think about how life would be if I looked up to standard,
I know I'm beautiful within,but I'm not what you would call pretty
in this day and age.
It hurts to think that just because I cant wear certain things,because
my hair isnt dyed,cut or styled a certain way,because certain people don't
want to be my friend,that I cant be happy.
You can tell me what you want and say those things dont matter and none of it
makes happiness,but I know that they do matter and you cant be happy when no one
is willing to accept you because you have to many flaws in your looks.
I wish people here seen things the way I do,I'm not saying I'm not judgemental and whatnot
but I look for things deeper than skin,I look for someone that I'm compatable with,
I can hold a conversation with,I can give my thoughts,hopes,dreams and opinons to,
someone I can share love and friendship with that will treasure it and not throw it away.
I want atleast once to feel the way that other people get to feel,beautiful.
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[28 Jul 2006|06:00am] |
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This is my first entry.
Pretty exciting business.
I had a livejournal once upon a time,but I lost it.
So,I will tell whoever reads this that I rant alot.
My myspace blogs are usually forever long,I intend on becoming a writer someday when I get inspiration :)
Well,
Today,well this evening rather I have been slightly aggravated,I like someone and it's never going to become anything and I know this and so does everyone else.
Harsh reality to face but why kid myself,right?
I was also aggravated because theres this girl.
She thinks that she is the best thing since Microsoft,no joke,like she is very judgemental and she has no place to be.
No one does really,but she surely doesnt.
People with egos the size or their hugombo asses bother me.
Oh well.
I went picture crazy earlier,heres a little taste :)
Yeah,TxUxFxF,I know.
But anyways,
My nose itches and Im freezing.
I think I am done with this entry considering its about 6:12 am :)
-Suzii
xo
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